It has taken Me a little over a week to get back into writing, all though I'm finding it difficult.
It was just over a week ago that anxiety hit me hard. It has been a long time since I have felt it that bad, to be honest I had forgotten just how bad it can get.
It's hard to put into words how this anxiety feels, it is different to the normal everyday anxiety( not that having anxiety everyday is normal ), it's like a wave washing over me, stopping me in my tracks followed by a sickening feeling it the pit of my stomache, light headed, tingles all over my body, ringing in my ears and a terrible feeling of doom and that I might even die.
The last time I felt like that wasn't good I ended up in hospital, so to say I was scared is an understatement.
Why did this terrible feeling decide to pay me a visit? Well I think it's a combination of things, like the weather( rain rain go away ), increase in pain and symptoms, stress of Christmas and the big one PERFECTIONISM.
So what did I do to help ease the symptoms of anxiety?, not be hard on myself and to accept the fact that I needed to rest ( easier said than done ).
I am feeling a little better but still have a long way to go.
Remember be kind to yourself always.
4 comments:
Leanne,
I'm really sorry you have been dealing with such anxiety. It's a feeling that's hard for people who haven't experienced it to understand.
I understand the fear associated with past hospitalizations. It's really stressful when that is looming as a possibility.
I hope the rain near you stops ASAP. The holidays can certainly add to the stress level but try not to overdo. I have struggled for a long time with perfectionism. I know it's difficult and that many things are easier said than done. Just try to cut yourself some slack and give yourself permission for things not to be perfect, OK?
I'm glad to hear that you are making an effort not to be hard on yourself. That's huge. Rest is vital. So it's great that you are paying attention to that too. I know it's easier said than done but it's important.
I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Next stop... a LOT better. :)
I haven't written a blog post since late November and I'm trying not to stress about it. I've been sick and busy. So, I have given myself "permission" to take my time. This lesson in patience is a relatively new thing for me. It seems very odd not to have written anything more recent but I just haven't had the time/energy to do so before now.
Yes, it's important for people to be kind to themselves. If we're as kind to ourselves as we are to others, that can go a long way.
Jeanne
Leanne,
Thinking of you!
Jeanne
Leanne,
I am sorry to hear that anxiety has been so difficult for you lately. I do understand how disruptive it is. Please take it easy and care for yourself!
HUGS
Leanne,
Ditto what Missy said.
Jeanne
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