It has taken Me a little over a week to get back into writing, all though I'm finding it difficult.
It was just over a week ago that anxiety hit me hard. It has been a long time since I have felt it that bad, to be honest I had forgotten just how bad it can get.
It's hard to put into words how this anxiety feels, it is different to the normal everyday anxiety( not that having anxiety everyday is normal ), it's like a wave washing over me, stopping me in my tracks followed by a sickening feeling it the pit of my stomache, light headed, tingles all over my body, ringing in my ears and a terrible feeling of doom and that I might even die.
The last time I felt like that wasn't good I ended up in hospital, so to say I was scared is an understatement.
Why did this terrible feeling decide to pay me a visit? Well I think it's a combination of things, like the weather( rain rain go away ), increase in pain and symptoms, stress of Christmas and the big one PERFECTIONISM.
So what did I do to help ease the symptoms of anxiety?, not be hard on myself and to accept the fact that I needed to rest ( easier said than done ).
I am feeling a little better but still have a long way to go.
Remember be kind to yourself always.